Promises are like babies: easy to make, hard to deliver. ~Author Unknown
Promises are the uniquely human way of ordering the future, making it predictable and reliable to the extent that this is humanly possible. ~Hannah Arendt
Half the promises people say were never kept, were never made. ~Edgar Watson Howe
We promise according to our hopes, and perform according to our fears. ~François VI de la Rochefoucault
Oaths are but words, and words but wind. ~Samuel Butler
To promise not to do a thing is the surest way in the world to make a body want to go and do that very thing. ~Mark Twain, The Adventures of Tom Sawyer, 1876
It is not the oath that makes us believe the man, but the man the oath. ~Aeschylus
The best way to keep one's word is not to give it. ~Napoleon Bonaparte
When a man takes an oath... he's holding his own self in his own hands. Like water. And if he opens his fingers then — he needn't hope to find himself again. ~Robert Bolt
Never take a solemn oath. People think you mean it. ~Norman Douglas
Not the maker of plans and promises, but rather the one who offers faithful service in small matters. This is the person who is most likely to achieve what is good and lasting. ~Johann Wolfgang von Goethe
All promise outruns performance. ~Ralph Waldo Emerson
Thou ought to be nice, even to superstition, in keeping thy promises, and therefore equally cautious in making them. ~Thomas Fuller
Promises are like crying babies in a theater, they should be carried out at once. ~Norman Vincent Peale
He loses his thanks who promises and delays. ~Proverb
Promise is most given when the least is said. ~George Chapman
Eggs and oaths are easily broken. ~Danish Proverb
Nothing weights lighter than a promise. ~German Proverb
A promise made is a debt unpaid. ~Robert Service
Promises and pie crusts are made to be broken. ~Jonathan Swift
An acre of performance is worth a whole world of promise. ~William Dean Howells
Losers make promises they often break. Winners make commitments they always keep. ~Denis Waitley
We must not promise what we ought not, lest we be called on to perform what we cannot. ~Abraham Lincoln
For every promise, there is price to pay. ~Jim Rohn
The promises of yesterday are the taxes of today. ~William Lyon MacKenzie
Promises are like the full moon, if they are not kept at once they diminish day by day. ~German Proverb
One must have a good memory to be able to keep the promises that one makes. ~Friedrich Nietzsche
Better break your word than do worse in keeping it. ~Thomas Fuller
Some persons make promises for the pleasure of breaking them. ~William Hazlitt
The promise given was a necessity of the past: the word broken is a necessity of the present. ~Niccolò Machiavelli
Hypocrisy can afford to be magnificent in its promises, for never intending to go beyond promise, it costs nothing. ~Edmund Burke
Oaths are the fossils of piety. ~George Santayana
Vote for the man who promises least; he'll be the least disappointing. ~Bernard M. Baruch
Let God's promises shine on your problems. ~Corrie Ten Boom
Promises make debt, and debt makes promises. ~Dutch Proverb
A promise is a comfort for a fool. ~Proverb
He was ever precise in promise-keeping. ~William Shakespeare
I was working 15 hour days and 7 days a week and one day I woke up and could not see. I went to the computer and could not focus. For two hours I tried to focus and could not. During the week my eyesight kept getting worse and so I went to a specialist and of course they found nothing wrong.
He wanted me to do a brain angiogram to check the veins going to the eye to see if there was blockage. But instead a friend of mine referred me to a neurologist. The eye doctor said I either had a stroke or I had blockage. People just don't lose their eyesight for no reason.
So the doctor was free and so I went. By the time I got there I was having severe sensitivity to the sun or even the lights in his office. I had to wear sun glasses even in doors. I could not even look at him. He gasped at how much pain I was in. Yes, besides the eye problems I had severe tendon pain and electric shocks in my brain.
So he tells me right off I had a stroke. I laughed and said no way. I told him "You mean I might have a stroke." He said "No, you already did." So he convinced me to do an MRI. Sure enough, I had two strokes not one. It happened while I was asleep and so there was no way to prevent this.
Something Had to Change
I had a thriving business and people depended on me. I knew with 2 strokes I had to be careful but I had a business. What was I going to do? I set up a bucket list of things I needed to do and once I finished those, I would retire and enjoy my life. Allah was generous and helped me do the things I wanted to do. I paid my rent a year in advance along with my phone and internet. Bought some things I needed along with an air conditioner for my bedroom, a big ticket item.
No matter what I did or how I planned to stop, I just could not. Client after client called me for help. So each week I planned to stop and just could not have the heart to say no. So each week I would tell my clients, this is it.
After I would get home after mailing the last box, I felt sad and so alone. I was glad it was finally over with, but I missed working. So each week I would come up with a reason I had to work more.
Then 3 months ago I had a major rupture in my knee tendon and I could not walk. Now retiring was a must. I was in so much pain and trying to walk 2 feet was impossible. I would go to the post office and be in so much pain, I cried. I needed money but I was dying. I had to quit.
I opened and closed my business around six times. My son said I looked like a flake and people would not trust me. It was not that I was a flake, it was I loved what I was doing. I needed to help people. I needed to work. The money I had saved was not enough. I had to decide do I quit working and not help anyone again or do I keep doing what I was doing and have a worse problem. I knew I had to quit.
Yes, you are right, I opened again. A few months later I discovered an herb called myrrh and it helped greatly. I could walk, had little pain and I could see myself getting better. But again we were faced with many consequences. The winter was approaching and customs in the US was a mess and so I decided to close in the winter months.
My heart was not happy though. I had worked the last few weeks changing all the websites over again and opening multiple stores. Weebly was moving ecommerce sites for me and I was trying to have small but valuable places for people to shop. But I noticed my heart was not happy.
Trust Your Heart
So I wrote to a sheik and asked him about my heart. Why was my heart not happy? Again my son told me to quit. He told me taking care of myself was more important than helping others. See the problem is there are no black seed experts on cancer. I had told Cancer Tutor to remove my cancer protocol and was changing things around, but once I did that the whole internet shut down.
Where were people going to get help with black seed oil? There were lots of articles on the current research on cancer and black cumin oil, but there was no place to get the actual protocol, except for thousands of websites who had copied me. The problem there is that I had updated my protocol at least 3 times and most people did not know the new ways to be well.
No matter how I tried to change things, there was still a huge gap in how I would leave this world. I either had to write or I had to have stores. I talked to my son again and we knew which way I would go. It was time to close again.
I enjoy writing and I enjoy writing about life. I enjoy creating protocols too. The problem is where do you get quality products? We are working on affiliate sales and looking for good products elsewhere. We are looking for things to help my clients who need guidance.
When I decided to close, I told my clients I would be charging consulting fees and everyone got upset. Why? Because for years I had done this for free. They could not understand the need to pay. The need to pay is because you cannot find good information on a blog. Cancer is not a part time business, it is a life and death choice.
While in the end I will miss working, I will always be around for those who need me. With a sad heart, we will close down again. Who knows, maybe after the winter is over, I will be back once more.